Saturday, August 22, 2015

A Battle Against Anorexia




Do I have your attention? Good.
Throughout middle school and high school and a semester of college I have been privileged enough to have a beautiful girl in my life! We have been friends for a long time and even were room mates for the first semester of college. She is beautiful inside and out, but she wasn't aware of that at one point in her life. I always worried about her weight, but she kept to herself about it. I hate that I didn't push more about it, but it wasn't my business and I didn't want to bother her. Some friend, huh?
In the picture of her on the bus, she was in high school. She disclosed to me that she hadn't eaten for 24 hours, the last time she had eaten was only dinner the whole day. She was a senior in band class. In the one with the ducks, she also hadn't eaten for at least 24 hours. After college and getting married, she went the opposite direction and gained a lot of weight. While I am glad she was no longer anorexic, this was not the healthy way to handle it.


"hunger migraines, heart problems and joint problems


that's what i've got now because of the mess i put myself through for years

i messed up my stomach so badly, that when i get hungry i actually get nauseous, making me not want to eat

kinda like....hangover stomach

start slowly with water" -V

One day she reached out to me for advice, and I was more than willing to be there for her! When she reached out to me, we would talk a lot about food and how much we LOOOOOVE it! There is NOTHING wrong with loving food. The problem was she couldn't tell herself no and when she had had enough. The more we talked, the healthier her choices started sounding! Less carbs and rich foods, more fruits and veggies. She was running on her treadmill and going on canoe trips and hikes with her husband! I was so excited for her! Then one day she told me she was skipping meals again....


"Ok, I'm getting super discouraged


Because I can't eat what I want so why eat at all?

Eating didn't make the numbers on the scale go down. Lately it's been making them go up"
She was slipping back into the thought pattern that being hungry meant her body was eating the fat. She said was dying for a hotdog. You know what I said? HAVE A HOT DOG! She was weighing her self every single day. Not the way to do it. Then she was weighing herself every time she ate. Obviously the scale went up when she ate, and it scared her. She panicked and skipped the next meal to compensate. She started her journey off simply wanting to get healthy and suddenly it was all about the scale again. We decided together not to include weight or the scale at all. Just eat healthy and get exercise! And you know what? It worked!

"It's so weird to be eating AND losing weight. Like I know that sounds so stupid, but I didn't know the two COULD go together." -V

Now I look forward to every little achievement she gets! I remember when she told me she ran a mile without stopping! We swap recipes and meal pics. She started out not sharing her journey with anyone online. BUT the other day, she posted a pic of herself showing her jeans were too big! And she did it WITHOUT starving herself! I am so super proud of this girl! Currently she is maintaining her weight because she has a wedding to attend this month and already had to take the dress in once! So awesome! I'm proud of her dress take in but I am 100% supportive of her weight maintenance. I am currently in a maintenance part of my journey as well. She said after the wedding, she is all set to get back into it though. She is currently still running, doing some yoga, and taking self defense classes! Get it girl! She also has a 5k she is preparing for! Dang! Love this girl and she is one of my BIGGEST inspirations to keep moving forward in my own journey.

Remember:
-We NEED food to live.
- It's ok to love food!
- It is all about moderation, portioning, healthy choices, and exercise.

If you are fighting this battle in your life, DON'T do it alone! Reach out to family, a friend, or even me. We can't do it alone.

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